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So, here I am taking a little break after the first week in medical posting. So, I barely survived surgical posting. Long story to tell. Frustration and disappointment were there. But hey, I learned a lot and still have so many things to learn and to be really good in it. 
Clinical years and pre-clinical years is a really two different worlds. Just like you are in a realm of Barney and then POOF!, you are in Hunger Games. Can you get it? In the hospital, everybody is expecting you to know everything even you sometimes (maybe most of the times) never heard of it at all. That's where your gut struggling to let out your maybe-it-exist-somewhere-in-my-head knowledge. Grr
For all those who are still in preclinical years, don't put away your anatomy, physiology, microbiology and all that -logy because there will be your savior in the hospital. trust me. Now I regret of all the time that I dozed off every time in class. Thanks, God, I did not have that prob in classes hospital. 
In the …


Alhamdulillah. All Praise to the Almighty and The Greatest.
I just passed the First Professional Exam and so did all my batchmates.

This exam was the most stressfull so far for me as I even got stress-related backpain that soo painful and mild hyperventilation. And that troublesome episode also attacked me during examination too. 😢

Thanks to umi abah for the endless support and dua'a for me. This two year of preclinical year was tough for me but alhamdulillah still surviving tho. Hopefully, clinical years will be good and can finish medical school safely graduating.

What If Game

Seeing aiman struggling for her post spm education was wretching my heart.
Abah said to me, "Jangan sebab hang, adik2 tak boleh belajar"
Yes, I know. I am the eldest of all. I am a medical student in a private university. This is already my third school anyway just to persue medicine.
Aiman is a very gifted student in arts and she kept show that she want to persue architecture. She didnt get any offer from UPU. She now in Form 6 in art stream. She was in science agama stream before this. I can tell she just keep going on with whatever subject that she had to deal with. I can see it was really not her passion.
If I am not the eldest, If I was not in medicine.. can aiman be able to be in architecture for now?
Sorry to be such a nuisance to everyone.
NP :  Han Seo Yoon - Lost Child

terbang dibawa angin perasaan

kalau memang dah bersemangat
tidoq pon kelaut
makan apa yang ada depan mata

tapi kalau dah motivasi tu dah masuk kubur
exam lagi dua hari pon 
hapa pon tak sentuh


final uni courses ahad ni
final medical courses may ni
pro exam june ni

semangat nak jadi doktor
terbang dibawa angin perasaan

seronok belajar medical knowledge
tapi nak istiqamah tu susah

macam nak 
istiqamah solat diawal waktu
istiqamah doing good deeds always

susah tapi insyaAllah worth it


nak belajar philosophy, theology, ideology, history semua tu
tapi second degree undergraduate
macam tak possible kat malaysia
especially when you are already in mbbs

any books for suggestion, friends?


anytime whenever I am in a disappointment and frustration,I wish I can easily give up and  not feel any regret after that.
I wish 
but game is over,  whenever you gave up.

Zen Pencils : Penang Q&A Session

31st Jan 2016
Constant Gardener Coffee

I am not a morning person and so, I was rushing to get into ferry and shuttle bus to go Zen Pencils event (kind of Q&A session). Alhamdulillah, I arrived there before they started the session. Of course, I dragged along my sister to accompany me. Iced Mocha ordered.
The really good thing is that we felt such warm welcoming by the cafe owner, the cafe crews and all the Zen Pencils' fans. It is really good to have such a very positive vibes along the session. The cafe started to full with all the fans that waiting for the session. My sister and I kind of freezing there as I am quite worried if we couldn't get any seats. Suddenly, Gavin (the cartoonist of Zen Pencils) came out from the other side of the cafe (which is basically all the seats are there), and I got excited (hahaha). "Omg Omg Aiman, that's Gavin!". He actually looks way better than in pictures. Serious. He casually greeted me, "Hi, I'm Gavin" and of…

Alex, Rosie [love, rosie version]

Alex is one of the sweetest fictional characters so far. hahaha. He supports Rosie when she suddenly got Katie and never forget, both of them were stupid. Yes. They were stupid to let all the years pass by without realizing it that it would great if they were together.
Maybe, this childhood friendship made them blind and vague of their own feeling and each of them gets lost in their life. They stumbled upon in their relationship journey but it was never too late for them to admit their feeling. After all the years, they finally understand themselves and get together.
Alex is a good man. Rosie was always rocks being a young mother to Katie. She might bang with some other loser which is Greg but hey, she was brave enough to take care of Katie even everyone around her was busy settling themselves in college. Fortunately, she got her family by her side to take care of Katie which we did not see in our society especially in Malaysia.
We have tons of dumped baby cases. We know committing zina …