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ost of the week.

scar - BIOS 
ost secret garden

I turned around many times already
I laughed like it was nothing
Even if I lied to my heart without words
Are you wandering because you don’t know my heart  Suddenly I’m afraid, saying I love you
They’re not words I’m used to saying
With hardened lips, I love you, I love you
I am shouting those words on your back Because we breathe the same air
It would be too much to ask for more
As love keeps growing without knowing
Only scars are coming back Even though I’m hurt, I’ll be here
I can only smile when I’m next to you
Can’t be happy, can’t be changed
You’re the one I chose My bruised heart is full of scars
When I look back, there are only tears
I can’t see because you can’t find me
Even my love hides right away Because we can breathe the same air
It would be too much to ask for more
As love keeps growing without knowing
Only scars are coming back Even though I’m hurt, I’ll be here
I can only smile when I’m next to you
Can’t be happy, can’t be changed
You’re the one I chose Trying hard …

menangis 2.0

jiwa yang halus itu
mudah aja manik-manik kristal itu gugur (kristal la sangat, contain HCl ada la...) bilamana prinsip dan pegangan yang  diperkotak-katikan dihempap dihina
bilamana peluang untuk menjelaskan dicampak jauh-jauh
jiwa yang lagi satu setia mendengar
turut jua gugur manik-manik suci itu.
cerita adik. cerita bonding kami. datang solusi dari umi
untuk memaafkan.....
sebab it's not worth it to cry on
and all of us smile again..... alhamdulillah. 
Bumi Dia, 11:58pm 030614

menangis.

bila dia menangis,
tak kisah la apa jua alasannya,
pasti aku susah dan resah gelisah
untuk mencari kata-kata
bait-bait yang
mungkin balm her ached heart for a second
mungkin soothe her away from those troubles

but, it's me
who fail in emotion logics
who fail in words
can't just say it out through words

nak je cakap
"menangis je la, let it all out"
"Allah ada, jangan risau ye babe"

tapi my lips get locked right away
and just could say it out
after she wiped her tears away.

and most painful moments,
when others that hugged her
to comfort her.
not me.

                                                            Bumi Dia, 030514 2:04PM

disclaimer : internal struggle of ukhuwah. not lesbo k.

G. narcissim

subject : G
manipulated variable: egoism level
controlled variable: narcissism level

discussion :

when G is so all out about himself, being narcissistic all the time, being mister-know-it-all, yet never take a leap to trust others. Though he is the most hardworking ever person that you had meet, the most amanah ...

but with this kind of attitude, he never make it till now (leave the future to Allah), 
spending the old days with long time framed memories
that kept being told to his "terdekat"

I know within G's deep heart. the most apex of the heart perhaps, G's really sorrow inside out and sort of stumble..slowly.

but with the ego mastermind inside,
he never want to at least, listen.
or just keep silent momentarily 
to reflect everything back

but, he still refuse to do so
kept telling his mind
"i am who i am"
"untouchables"
"nah, you just a bundle of stupid people outta there that know nothing"

sigh.

helpless.

lost direction.

broken compasses.

but still, when …

doa manusia

manusia - manusia hanya akan terus berdoa  akan angan dan impian 
yang perlu dikejar ribuan tapak lagi
barangkali mungkin itu sebabnya 
banyak yang menangis bila mana 
yang dekat tebar hilang berjauhan
yang kasih jadi bom ledak dalam hati
bila mana semua orang 
lupa untuk senyum dan sayang
dengan yang terdekat juga doa
mungkin...
                                                                                     bumi Allah 030314 11:30PM 

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