HAHA..

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"amacam dah abeh exam"

"alhamdulillah..whatever it's come out after this, all of those will be His best plans. InsyaAllah."


That was what I said when my lovely sister asked me about my scary final exam. The well- said which now is 

kinda testing me this right moments. Yes. Indeed, i felt some sort of zombinated human-being right now. 

Everything seemed a very pitch coal black and sensed fear anywhere in this deep heart. Everything that I 

believed and confident seemed to collapse just like 9/11.. huh? 


Yeah... the moments. Heart-wrecking moments.


Just about clicking the e-pelajar tabs, my family just around me - chatting together before sending off my sister 

to her boarding school in Bukit Kayu Hitam - then just scroll down the pages - then ran to the bathroom. flood 

maybe? in cheeks? haha....

After minutes (kofh..kofh), my sis salam with me, my ummi came and my abah hugged me...

"tak pa, abah kan ada, jangan teriak"

haha. Lagi bah la wei. At the moments, I really scared to embrace them and tell the truth. But everyting turned out in every unexpected way that I thought. Alhamdulillah. They are always there for me when the hard times come.

off topic : Jack Frost is damn cool!! hahaha.. if he were real....

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