ouch!
The things that you know that always want
to do it but your mind always work too much!
After all the thing that I went through,
now I know the hikmah (wisdom or the good side of it) of reaaalllly relying on
Allah and believe that He is Truly The Planner. Alhamdulillah. Being here in a
medical college that just starts to spread out its wings, I am really grateful
for being here. My friends here treat me like a family and they made me feel
like Im belong here. Yes, there is loopside here and there but happy enough to
say that I feel content and happy. and Damai (peace)!
Just wanna shared a program that I was
asked to join. Haha.
First Slot : Amar Makhruf Nahi Mungkar
for Doctors by Mister Amin (p/s : we called it mister as he is a surgeon
specialist kot)
Second Slot : Kewajipan Berjemaah
Third Slot : Tasawuf Tarbiyah
I am the kind who always excited to hear
all those doctors’ experiences. Yes, I really value that and a kind of
booster-spirit-serum to survive in medicine. He shared when he was doing his
alevel at london (wow), then he went to rcsi (second wow) and hospital gossip?
haha yeah. that’s lame issue such consent form, emergency and yada yada.
The next slot was held by ustadh(s) that
still in late twenties I believe. And they did a brialliant job on explaining
what is all about tarbiyah and da’wah. They explained it slowly to let us
really understand. One of the ustadh say tarbiyah is a life-long education
processes. He said that the tarbiyah processes end when the right foot of ours
step in the heaven. And now, the problem is facing the ignorance (baca
kebodohan) our own ummah – mean that they know Islam but go against with it.
(Mana syahadah kita?)
All of these talks made my heart wanna
cry and face it through and through. Yes. It has been a long time of not
getting involved in jama’ah. I know all its responsibles and such to be a good
Muslim.
But.
But.
Sometimes, I just have to end my endless “but”
and start really working on that.
Happy when got to see all my asasi
friends that they now are already the top leader in their jama’ah. The feeling
that you glad to see all your friends can make it through but here, zafirah is still
in doubting which jama’ah that I want to choose.
(insert frowning face here)
May Allah guide me to be a good Muslim
and future Muslim doctor.
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