ost of the week.

-
scar - BIOS 
ost secret garden

I turned around many times already
I laughed like it was nothing
Even if I lied to my heart without words
Are you wandering because you don’t know my heart 
Suddenly I’m afraid, saying I love you
They’re not words I’m used to saying
With hardened lips, I love you, I love you
I am shouting those words on your back
Because we breathe the same air
It would be too much to ask for more
As love keeps growing without knowing
Only scars are coming back
Even though I’m hurt, I’ll be here
I can only smile when I’m next to you
Can’t be happy, can’t be changed
You’re the one I chose
My bruised heart is full of scars
When I look back, there are only tears
I can’t see because you can’t find me
Even my love hides right away
Because we can breathe the same air
It would be too much to ask for more
As love keeps growing without knowing
Only scars are coming back
Even though I’m hurt, I’ll be here
I can only smile when I’m next to you
Can’t be happy, can’t be changed
You’re the one I chose
Trying hard to hide my tears
Are you passing by
I turned around without telling you
Even today I’m still there
Filling my heart with tears
I put those words in my heart
I pass by like it was nothing
And then I beat my chest
Can’t be happy, can’t be changed
You’re the one I chose

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

e-Housemen Bil 3/2020: An experience of lifetime.

-
Image
Assalamualaikum and Hi! Passed Professional Exam II last year.  Graduating last year. Applied and submitted registration SPA for Pegawai Perubatan UD41 last year. Applied for MMC Provisional Registration last year. Selected for Tapisan 8/10 last year and here go finally my name was selected for Pegawai Perubatan Gred UD41 Bil 3/2020. A lmost 10months waiting time if counted from settled everything with SPA and MMC. I worked in as a clinic assistant for 6 months in waiting period. Haha. Could not believe it, I will start working my second job and most important as graduating medical student. Here come forth the journey of a junior-doctor-in-training.  It's all started when my bestfriend, Dhina informed me when suddenly we can register our name in the e-Housemen website on 29th June 2020. My heart jumped inside and I did jumped like a monkey hahaha as I did grateful because I did thought my tapisan might not be selected in this intake. But Allah plan everything right? Upon registrati
Read more

calm before the storm

-
I often misjudged myself. Too much underestimated myself. I thought coming to labour room as my first night as second poster will remain calm as how I entered it.  But it is not. Until, I was told to request Safe O for ongoing PPH. Then. another GXM. Then, my friend who was in OT told me it was until another cryoprecipitate, FFP and platelet.  Attended new coming patient at PAC. Terima kasih Tuhan for giving me all the help from the SN and dependable colleagues. Until  I heard the PPH patient the last resort for her is hysterectomy. . . . . I keep working do all the need as lowest chain in the system as houseman until all work done almost at 1 pm. Back to hostel, get showered and sleep a while waiting for Kakcik to fetch me. I cried all the way back to home as my head kept remembering that patient, Para 1 at her late twenties.  Thanks God, her son is healthy as a baby should be.  Recharging myself today on my offday. Semoga Tuhan berikan kekuatan untuk hari-hari mendatang.  I pray all
Read more

SHORT NOTICE # through and through

-
Image
Assalamulaikum wbth...  tiada kaitan. sekadar suka dengan daun kering. a cue that seen everyday that life is short, enjoy it to the fullest divinely  Sejak menjejak kaki ini di tanah Sarawak ini ( tiada mood lagi untuk lagu untuk aku postkan entri-entri pasal datang ke UNIMAS ini. I prefer explore the exeperiance to the fullest than i shared it .) Kini mood itu datang menjengah di hati kecil ini. Minggu Aluan Pelajar (MAP) yang berlangsung dan dikendalikan oleh semua LO (Liaison Officer) yang sangat bersemangat. There were so many things that we had to do it. By hook or crook, just do it. Things went very awesome when mingling with students with different background. Sarawakian accents sound sweet.. ahaha but i still need time to digest those accents well. Serious! Registered earlier than the rest had me connected the ukhuwah with Kak Khai, Kak Izzah and Kak Farhana. Orang-orang hebat. Fullstop Yesterday, Kak Shafa and her gang brought a group of Asasian ( termasuk ak
Read more